Marathon = Insanity...

So does that mean a half marathon equals only partial insanity? I have always admired runners. I see them everyday, whether it be driving on my way to the store or taking a walk at the local preserve. I admire them. I respect them. And honestly, I am jealous of them. Their determination to complete the 26.2 miles inspires me. I do enjoy running...to an extent. It allows me to rid myself of any anger or hurt I may be feeling and just relax. I like the feeling of the wind blowing past me and the sound of my shoes hitting the pavement. I just wish I was more determined to run farther like those marathon runners. I'm not going to lie, the moment I feel like my lungs are about to explode and my heart is about to beat through my chest, I stop. I give up. I begin to walk. Now, this is probably the right decision from a medical standpoint. It's my body's way of telling me to slow down and take it easy. But to me it symbolizes failure. I do not like I failure. I like to complete every task at hand no matter how intense or trying it may be. But for some reason, when it comes to running, no matter how much I want to run further, I can't. So, with that said, I am going to run the White Rock Half Marathon next year. I have already started training by running a specific amount each day. It feels so fulfilling and rewarding to complete my goal each day. I am learning that it doesn't matter how many miles I run, but that I just finish. I have also been paying close attention that the food I eat. I have always been health conscious due to my diabetes, but still ate sugar and other foods that contained too many carbs. So as my New Years resolution this year I gave up sugar, COMPLETELY! It's been six days now and hasn't been too much of a struggle but more difficult at times than others. I never realized how much you crave something until you can't have it haha! But I am going to stay strong and not cave because this is something that is truly important to me and I do not want to give up. My sister and best friend are helping me and definitely been huge encouragements. Anywho, I am going to get back to OTH season 6...it's completely incredible...and I will talk to you tomorrow. Good night!